Why must I battle the demons inside? why must I re-play the out come every time...each time is a different fate with a different face. A happy ending with a twisted scenery, a end of all ends to make amends.  If I could hold out the promises of tomorrow and wish for a better road ahead, I would take the chance and let it linger longer than my HOPES.  I'm not the same, before and after he came.  He left and I feel the shame.  I am uniquely unique, I got the whole world on my shoulders just looking for the simple factors of the actors that keep coming in and out of this life.  You can't be as fake as the rest, you can only be your BEST! I am the perfectness of my imperfectly decisions which make me who I am. Why oh why do we do the things that we do just to be included, to feel accepted, to feel like we belong? In actuality the negative thoughts fade in and I am alone once again...I am better than what I believe myself to be, but I can't break free of these chains.  I can't let go of the weakness that impales me and I am SCREAMING inside for just a little time...I wish you weren't so BLIND, I wish these things for us, for the sanity of ALL human KIND. I can only DREAM OF A TIME WHEN THINGS WILL BE FINE....Why oh why am I so hard on myself? why do I think the things that I think. Why do I live my life like I am stuck on this page forever? Why am I a deep thinker? Why do I care too much? I can only be me, and I can only hope that I am accepted truly for what I'm worth! I am the Best of my kind, I am stronger than I think, smarter than I know....One day I will glow!